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So as you guys already know, I have walked at college, and now only need to finish student teach, which I only have a little more than a month to go on to get my teaching certificate. I finally have my own car and have gotten a hang of driving so I don't feel nearly as silly now as I was trying to adult without one. I have a boyfriend who loves me, and I was able to stay with his family during student teaching as he is still gone at college in another state, so I am able to get to know his family and do not have to go into debt for housing as we are not allowed to have jobs during student teaching. I am an incredibly lucky person and I really don't have any right to complain about anything, right?

On the other hand, this week has been super stressful. I am running a unit at my school that I created and my teacher has been gone aside from the very beginning of the day. hat is fine and good, I need to be ready to be able to manage a classroom without any mentor teacher at all, but it is taking a lot of time and getting used to, which probably is making it harder to handle other things well.
Now for the kickers. My parents have been super protective, as in protecting me from the dentist since I was 8, so went to the a dentist to see how bad the damage is and what the best courses of action would be to make eating not hurt quite so much... Let's just say the prognosis is rather overwhelming and I am on my own as I am not supposed to be going to dentists because "They hurt people". Then my debit card information was stolen a couple of days ago, which I was able to cancel before too much damage was done, but now I am several states away from home without access to my money and a car that will need gas eventually. I was really hoping to go back to college next weekend to visit my boyfriend and my other friends who are all over there, but I need to sort this out first so I don't know if I will be able to do that. The next day when I was trying to sort things out I realized that my phone had given up, and by the time I was able to get that sorted out the places I needed to call to continue a job application for after student teaching was closed. Then my car insurance bill came about 50 dollars more than usual instead of 50 dollars less like they told me they would change it to, but by the time my phone worked again the office was closed till next week... and now I think of it my debit card is canceled so they will probably be mad at me about that, but I need to drive to get to student teaching or I will fail that. Also apparently my boyfriends' ex still up at college is apparently being mean to him right now, which is giving me conflicting emotions that I can't even identify, and I am very concerned and confused that they are conflicting, but all I know is that they are strong and all I can do about it is listen to how it is unfolding from another state away.

My friends and activities that I do not do online to relieve stress are all at college, so with a car they seem so close and yet so far away at the same time... and I need to be stretching the gas right now. So many years I have been working so hard through college thinking things would be easier and more under control after I was done with that... Then things like this happens. I so badly want to be self sufficient already but it seems like the universe is fighting me on that. This is life though... Is this what it is like always? I don't even know anymore, and I should be working more... But I just feel stressed and bleh right now and all the things I want to do now I can't until Monday, but if I wait on everything then I won't be able to do everything on time.